My career in psychotherapy actually started when I found out that a local Rape Crisis Center was desperately in need of volunteers. This was in the early 80’s. I was young, still in freelance advertising, but searching for a new path. “Just come to one meeting,” the woman on the phone said. “No obligations.” Before I could say “sure,” I was in the middle of an eight-week intensive training in crisis counseling and in short order taking shifts on the hot line at three in the morning.
It was an initiation that retrospectively reminds me of the polar bear club-those insane men and women who jump into icy waters in the middle of winter. They call it brisk. I call it shocking.
And I was shocked-by what I heard, by what I felt, by the incomprehensible ways that people hurt one another and the long, lonely road to recovery so many had to walk in those days.
PTSD, now a part of our common parlance, was then a fairly new addition to the Diagnostics and Standards Manual (DSM) that mental health professionals use for assessments. In fact, while I was still in college, I proposed a research study on the long-term effects of severe stress on Holocaust survivors to the dean of psychology at a “prestigious” university in NY. He laughed and told me that it would be impossible, that I was overly-ambitious, and besides there was no such thing as stress-disease in the way that I had framed it. There wasn’t even a diagnosis for it at that point.
Yet, those people who didn’t exist for that Dean managed to find me… on the hot line and then in my office after I finished graduate school. And what I came to find in them was a variation and complexity much broader than I had been prepared for. Trauma is rarely the result of one horrifying moment. It is almost always compounded by constitution, causality (was the event precipitated by a loved one?), and consequences (was the person ignored, dismissed after the trauma?). Just as Hahnemann teaches us, every person comes to his or her life with a unique individuality. Every event is received and integrated differently and every person must be approached with that understanding-we treat the person not the disease. No two people-and no two traumas-are alike.
For that reason the techniques I had learned in graduate school and in post-graduate study were good, but they weren’t going as deep or lasting as long as I had hoped. Hypnosis was great, but only up to a point. NLP helped but, again, just so far and for just so long. EMDR was terrific for short-term relief, but so many variables had to be addressed it took forever and seemed similarly superficial. Each one of these modalities has been invaluable and I still use them in the course of treatment (* for a list of excellent books to read, see end of article) but they never seemed to go far enough, reach wide enough or sink deep enough on their own for me to consider a case completely cured I struggled and juggled technique after technique until I gratefully found homeopathy. Then I started seeing some real miracles.
Case #1: Ailments from Disappointed Love
17-year old Lena (name changed) came to my office in acute distress. Her mother brought her in one day after discharge from a psychiatric facility. She presented with a flat affect, spoke in word salad, and stated that she was pregnant despite medical evidence to the contrary. Her abdomen was quite distended. She had been put on Abilify, Cogentin, Risperdal and benzodiazepines. They planned on weaning her off after her outpatient treatment had started.
Approximately one week before going into the hospital, she had returned from a party in what her mother called a “euphoric” state, “completely changed.” Prior to the party she had been an A+ student, an athlete, popular, diligent, responsible, socially skilled. “Everyone wanted to sit next to Lena,” her mother said.
When asked about the party, Lena was incoherent, answering in rambling, irrelevant monologues. I asked her if she understood what she was saying and she responded, “I’m confused. I’m having so much word salad.” She seemed genuinely frustrated.
Although she couldn’t articulate what had happened at the party that might have contributed to her current state, she did say: “All I want to do is be with my boyfriend.” She had been dating the same boy since she was 15.
According to her mother, Lena’s boyfriend was “a good boy,” although she was worried that Lena’s psychiatric condition would put a strain on the relationship and didn’t know how that would affect her daughter. (As soon as she’d gotten out of the hospital she’d gone to see him at his parents’ home and had started talking in rather vulgar terms about their sexual life in front of the family. She stated she had no memory of it but was told about it by her boyfriend.)
Several days after the party in question, she began speaking unintelligibly and complaining of an inability to urinate. She was soon taken to a physician’s office and transferred to the E.D., where her case was eventually given to the psychiatric department because of her manic presentation. She had insisted that she was pregnant despite sonograms and blood tests to the contrary. She was so sure of her pregnancy that she slept with her hand inside her vagina to keep the baby from falling out.
She hated the hospital and often was more than resistant, having to be restrained. She recalled being put on Fentanyl, feeling paralyzed, raped and hysterical as they catheterized her to release retained urine. They also found it very difficult to draw blood from her, even though her mother stated that was very unusual for her.
Her mother stated there were no infections and that all the medical tests came back normal.
Her case unfolded in starts and stops. While it seemed that there was a clear point in etiology, the cause remained unclear and the symptoms scattered. We asked her and her mother for some general information:
She tended to be chilly and preferred spring and fall for the temperate climate. She liked ice cream and ices. She had left-sided ovarian pain with ovulation and a cyst on the right ovary. She often had faintness during menses and sometimes passed out. She had a tendency to hemorrhages and, despite the experience in the hospital, normally bled easily. She had a vivid imagination, was artistic and said she drew like “Tim Burton.” She played piano, loved animals, had nightmares as a child and sometimes reported seeing angels or spirits.
She presented as very sympathetic and personable. In fact, as soon as she came in, she offered a hug and said, “You look good. Nice outfit.”
Her mother reported a normal pregnancy with Lena although she was delivered via c-section due to mother’s lack of dilation. She was the youngest and a very quiet, easy-going baby. No major childhood illnesses reported.
She had excelled in academics and was quite diligent. When she had this psychotic break, she was just about to graduate with additional certification and get to work right out of high school.
Without more to go on, her first repertorization appeared thus:
Mind, delusions, pregnant
Generals, faintness, menses
Mind, delusions, specters
Mind, thoughts, rush of
Although I had initially felt a strong calling to Phosphorous because of her sympathetic nature, her clairvoyance, and cystic constitution, this first repertorization came up Ignatia. But the whole case seemed wanting. I already knew that Ignatia was a good hysteria remedy, but a psychotic break?
I called Dr. Karl Robinson when he came into town and I ran the case by him. He was intrigued by the depth and clarity of her delusion. Once he’d heard the case out, he asked me, “So, what happened at the party?”
To my utter chagrin I had to say, “I don’t know. I couldn’t get much detail out of anyone.”
In no uncertain terms, he gave me my work orders, “You need to know what happened at that party! That’s where the case is!” And he was absolutely right.
By the time I saw her next, her affect and thought processes were clearly still impacted (free associating, rambling speech, affect blunt), but she was slightly more coherent due to the allopathic medication and could begin to recall what happened before her hospital admission.
Apparently at the party, she had found out that her boyfriend was cheating on her. She remembered that she began “yelling and screaming” until she “couldn’t breathe.”
From that point she became and stayed hysterical. It was trauma. And insanity. The ailments were from disappointed love and mental shock.
With that, the case was revealed and the rubrics were expanded as follows:
Mind, delusions, pregnant
Mind, ailments from, disappointed love
Mind, ailments from, shock, mental
Mind, insanity, grief,
Mind, insanity, cheerful, gay
Mind, conscientious about trifles
Mind, speech, wandering
Mind, thoughts, wandering
Mind, delusions, specters
Bladder, retention of urine
Generals, faintness, menses
Generals, lack of vital heat
Again it came up overwhelmingly Ignatia and we finally had the emotional point of origin: disappointed love, mental shock. This was yet another crucial lesson to me about trauma: that it was the Great Imitator. It could induce a multitude of symptoms with a range so wide it could look like, act like and feel like any number of other disorders.
She received Ignatia 10M.
On the first dose, she broke out into hives and went to the bathroom until her bowels were emptied of what appeared to be two weeks’ worth of stool. When she came back in to the office, it was as if she were a new person, mentally and emotionally calmer, a clear gaze and expressions that indicated a wider range of emotions. She was more capable of accessing information from memory and expressing it in an understandable manner. Her medications were being reduced but her well-being continued.
She began to have the insight appropriate for a young woman of her intelligence and sensitivity. When she discussed her bowel movements, she said, “It was like having a miscarriage.” When asked how it made her feel, she said, “Sad.” When asked why, she explained that she would have liked to have had a baby and wondered if maybe it was a way of keeping her boyfriend close to her.
She has begun to have other similar insights into her family life, her disappointments, and the way she has been the emotional cornerstone for her family.
It has been approximately 3 months as of this writing. She has broken up with her boyfriend, gone back to school, and continues to pursue her career. While she surely has a way to go emotionally, no clear, new symptoms have developed and she remains calm with no delusions.
Case #2: A Secret Teenage Abortion
Stacy, 35, came in complaining primarily of her relationship with her mother, which was “awkward, tense, uncomfortable.” She was unable to identify why in the initial interview except to say that she felt every conversation with her mother ended in annoyance or anger. “She’s always analyzing me.”
She had no outstanding medical history, denied any sexual or physical abuse, and claimed to have had a happy childhood. She was raised in a split household religiously. Mother was an agnostic/humanistic psychologist but her father was a Catholic who regularly went to church. She often found herself trying to be a peace-maker. “I was the kid who wanted to make other people happy.”
Although the initial complaint was her relationship with her mother and she denied any overt traumatic event, it turned out that she was experiencing a wide range of stress symptoms since she had started a new job working with abandoned children. As she spoke about work, she began to cry. “No one wants them.”
She disclosed that she was often sleepless, intensely sensitive, and frightened for no apparent reason. She had become irritable with her boyfriend and was concerned her mood changes were going to chase him away.
No other symptoms were admitted until the third or fourth session when she disclosed that she’d had an abortion at 16 years old.
“I didn’t want it. I just didn’t know what else to do. My mother wouldn’t help me. So I went alone. I haven’t been whole since them,” she said, sobbing openly. It was more than grief. It was a stricken conscience. She wept as she wished she had been smart enough or informed enough to put the baby up for adoption. “I was just so scared. But I hurt someone for my own gain.”
“And,” I asked her, “your job? The children there?”
“They’re just left. No one wants them. I worry that my baby felt that way about me. That I didn’t want her.”
Now, we started to see the case open up. She complained of occasional vertigo at work, chilliness aggravation with menses, menses irregularities, difficulty getting out of bed in the morning.
I took the following rubrics:
Mind, ailments suppressed/silent grief
Mind, terrors of conscience
Mind, desire for solitude
Sleep, prolonged morning
The prescription was Cyclamen 30c, once a day for three days.
She felt immediately relieved as the dam was raised and her memories about the abortion and her feelings of abandonment were released. Interestingly, she got her period at precisely 28 days and did not have any of the pain or clotting she normally associated with it. She got a return of migraine symptoms she hadn’t experienced since the abortion, which promptly disappeared.
After approximately 2 months of psychotherapy in which we focused primarily on processing her loss and anger over the way her pregnancy was handled, what began to emerge was a slightly different picture, one that resonated to me as a deeper level of the same constitution:
She described her shame at not being perfect, her feeling the need to control things because of an exaggerated sense of duty and a profound sensitivity to the horror of the world. She preferred to suffer silently and was generally averse to consolation, although she was highly predisposed to offer consolation to others.
We re-took the case: Despite the initial intake in which all the following was denied, she described a history of allergies since infancy, moles and a personal history of precancerous lesions on her face, a childhood history of eczema and nail biting, a personal history of pneumonia, a fear of failure, and numerous serious, early childhood diseases, including scarlet fever. This is one of the many important reasons to continue pursuing the case even though you think you’ve already taken it! Even a client as open and honest and diligent as Stacy may not think of things at the outset of treatment that in homeopathy are considered important. Especially in the treatment of trauma, where there are layers of fear, forgetfulness, and detachment, we will need to ask questions more than once over time.
And it’s a good thing I did, because another trauma remedy appeared: Carcinosin, which we gave in LM potency because of her history of pre-cancerous lesions. We started with LM1, 10 succussions, bid, and within the week she got symptoms of an ordinary cold-runny nose, stuffy sinuses, sleepy-while at the same time she described a sense of “being more centered.”
Over the next two months we moved her from LM1 to LM5, at which point, she reached a calm and happy plateau. With each new level she got a quick series of aggravations and a concomitant her sense of herself improving energetically. She handled her work with just as much compassion but with a healthier admixture of detachment so she could function smoothly. It has been two years since treatment and she regularly stays in touch to let me know how well she is and how different her experience of life has become.
Case #3: Stuck in a Nightmare
A woman in her mid-20’s sat in my waiting room, hunched over. She sat as if cowering, avoiding direct eye contact. She breathed in puffs, barely able to talk. She seemed genuinely horrified, as if she’d just seen a ghost.
When she finally started talking, bits and pieces of a story emerged in which she was used from very early childhood as a sex slave in a rural region of northern Nevada. The word she used over and over was “nightmare.” And, to my eyes, she was still there, a child, lost, bewildered, horrified, barely able to breathe from terror. She spoke hurriedly of waking up in the middle of the night, seeing a man in the room, sleep-walking, banging her head on a wall so hard and shrieking so loud that on several occasions the police had to come.
She then reported she’d been raped by a friend in her own home approximately six months prior to our first session and was terrified that someone was in her home and she was going to be attacked.
Without being able to take a clear history at that point, I just had to watch her. I came up with the following:
Mind, Ailments, fright
Mind, Ailments, violence
Mind, Ailments, sexual abuse
Respiration, puffing, expiration
I gave her Stramonium 10M. Within one week, she came back and was able to sit and talk. Her nightmares diminished considerably. Within one month they were nearly gone. She was able to have a normal conversation. Her eye contact had improved. Her fear was being transformed. Instead of terror, she was beginning to access the anger and abject pain of being so unloved as a child.
Over the next couple of months, her nature began to emerge: She had been a good-natured child, clinging, wanting love more than anything else. She couldn’t understand how people could hurt her. She had chosen men poorly, tried to manipulate them to be nicer to her, but clung to them the way she clung to the adults in her early life no matter how they treated her. She wept openly, was sympathetic, and responded to consolation. She was warm-blooded, slept with her feet out of the covers on her back, craved dairy and ice cream.
The last remedy she got was Pulsatilla 1M. She has been steadily improving, finding an increased peace, exploring the possibility of dating again, and scraping off the last vestiges of her past.
These are just a few examples of what can be done with homeopathy in trauma. I have been working with cases of anxiety and trauma of varying degrees for more than twenty five years and I sincerely wish I’d had homeopathy in my tool chest from the beginning. The most important thing I’ve learned in using homeopathy with my patients is that even though there are so-called “trauma” remedies, any remedy can be used because it is not the trauma we’re treating. It’s the person. Always the person.
Short List of Recommended Books on Trauma Treatment:
- Rothschild, Babette, The Body Remembers (W.W. Norton & Company, NY, 2000)
- Erickson, Milton, H., Rossi, Ernest L, and Rossi, Sheila I., Hypnotic Realities, Irvington Publishers, N.Y., 1976
- Dolan, Yvonne, M., Resolving Sexual Abuse, (W.W. Norton & Company, N.Y., 1991)
- Wolinsky, Stephen, Ph.D., Trances People Live, (The Bramble Company, CT., 1991)
- For more information on classical homeopathy, please refer to The National Center for Homeopathy.
Source by Judith Acosta